Thursday, August 25, 2005


I took at little detour this morning. I've been in constant motion from 4:40am to 10pm every day this week. Due to unforeseen circumstances yesterday, I had even more things to do after work than I had planned. I'm trying to get some normalcy back in my life so I can go to sleep earlier than 10:30 or 11.

I'm not so much tired at night, but I'll tell you, come morning when I wake up, I just want to keep sleeping. I woke up today and said (half asleep) that I was going to call in sick to work so I could keep sleeping. Sometimes getting up at 4:40am is a daunting task. My husband told me to call. He would if he could (right -- the guy's called in sick 2 times in the past 11 years). I said I had no one to call in to because my manager is out learning to be more creative. I've never called in sick just because I was tired, so I wasn't going to start now.

I slowly woke up, then was awake and ready to get my day started. I got on BART, started reading (Fyodor Dostoyevsky's The Idiot -- while I am enjoying this book way more than I thought I would, really should have cut his paragraphs down. I always thought "idiot" meant a real "idiot," but in Dostoyevsky world, an idiot is just a really nice, smart guy -- go figure.) and then quickly fell asleep at some point. I was so tired that I don't even remember when I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I looked out the window, and I saw signs that read "Civic Center." tired brain thought. Civic Center? That's 2 stops past mine! I had to play it cool because I didn't want to be that idiot (not Dostoyevsky's idiot, mind you, but a real one) again who rushes off the train, so I acted like I knew what was going to on, continued on to 16th Street, got off and got on the Richmond train to head on back to Montgomery.

And you know what? Not only was I a bit disheartened that my fellow riders abandoned me (there had to be one person who could have woken me up), I really didn't care so much that I slept through my stop. I'm tired, darnit. I should have went all the way to the end of the line and back!

1 comment:

Timmy said...

'The Idiot' is one of my favorites, but 'The Brothers Karamozov' is even better (and longer).